i  have a diff blog…months of snow make your hair fall out…fyi jic u care to follow…

well, lavender is an awesome color! :)

post anything here but i cant get rid of this, so if ur following this blog, go to my other one…months of snow make your hair fall out….thats where my real shit is at. <3

is….months of snow make your hair fall out…if anyone wants to follow.

i was so busy dieing

blind to the colors of life….paralyzed by sadness and grief

i was so busy dieing

gray day after gray day endlessly oozing by

i was so busy dieing

expression casketed in satin…awaiting a next life

i was so busy dieing

turning into  black dust….to be thrown by the four winds, forgotten

but suddenly your voice became a comfort, a secret that only you and i share

resistant, i stirred slowly, took a breathe, reached for you

because you would not stop reaching for me

i flailed in the darkness of fear and doubt, fought the desire to flee

i spoke my own ugly truths for the first time ever

and you still took my hand, willed my heart to beat, stirred something in me

that filled me with things i had never felt

i owe you my life

have you ever owned such a gift?

i have never allowed myself such an extravagant debt that feels so weightless

you’ve demolished everything that i worked so hard to build

i have always wished for someone who cared enough to do that

i have always wished for you.

by terri l. adrian 1/2011